everthing is new.....


new email...new blog....new life...
hoping this will make it better....

learn to respect other...

how??? why???

how much i regret it...

there no turning point...

juz learn from mistake...

am i bad???

am i hypocrite???

thingking so much bout other...

make us no time with ourself...

stupid thing....

juz enjoy with urself....

other is their own bussiness...

so what wrong with that..

u with urself...ur ife...


~tah pape nagrot ble x de keje....

cetusan lagi....


hurmmm...tadi bru mengalami satu perasaan...perasaan dapat idea...huhuh...besh gler...so idea itu diluahkan di sini...huhhuhu...

Ditanya sahabat...
"jannah,pe pndpat jannah..kalo sseOwg tuu kt wall bkn men post prkara2 bek.. nsihat,cramah lg kt wall..tp kt chat len citer.. haihh@_@"

Ana jawab...
"sumething wrong ngan org tu la....haihhh...mcm2 manusia....tapi klu jannah jd fyra...try slow talk...klu da x mkan saman...souds dirct je la...cam kasar an...that my style...klu x un remove je....wat2 x penah kenal org uh....huhuhuh...jahat x??? ^^"

Kenapakah??
hati manusia...siapa tahu...niat org lain hanya urusan dia dan Allah...kadang kala terlepas pandang...tidak berfikir panjang....atau....mmg org tu bermasalah mengawal diri...hehehe...menghadapi org spesis ini mmg memerlukan ksbran...sabarlah ya akhi dan ukhti ya...:))

Hipokritkah ana??
ana cuba jadi diri sendiri....tapi ada yg salah sangka...ckp ana hipokrit...buat sume sbb nak tunjuk baik...saket gler aty ana...lebih2 lagi yg cakap tu kawan sendiri...tapi ana pujuk aty...biarlah...siapa x marah...pujuk lg aty....buat2 macam mende uh x penah jd...

Renungan bersama...
Daripada Amirul Mukminin ‘Umar ibn al-Katthab r.a. beliau berkata: Aku
mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

“Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap amalan
itu bergantung kepada niat, dan bahawa sesungguhnya bagi setiap orang apa yang
dia niatkan. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya menuju kepada Allah dan RasulNya, maka
hijrahnya kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya kerana dunia
yang dia mahu mencari habuannya, atau kerana seorang perempuan yang dia mahu
kahwininya, maka hijrahnya ke arah perkara yang ditujuinya itu.”


~sabarlah duhai hati...jgn ego sngat~ pesanan buat diri...

Muhammad Naqiuddin....

video



~saje nak tunjuk adikku ini...
~MUHAMMAD NAQUIDDIN BIN MUHAMAD`....
~mse tgh ngaji ngan ana...
~skng ne tgh bace iqra 3...
~mcm2 alasan x mo ngaji ngan ana...
~garang la..jahat la...tapi...ada ana kisah?? huhuh...
~sangat curious...penat gak layan...hahhaha
~insan yg mewarnai hidup ana....
~kalau gi solat jumaat mmg semagat....
~kalu suh solat kat umah kne ader rotan bru jalan...hahahaha


~terlalu bnyk ketawa...buatkan ana terasa muram~~

picture a.k.a gambar...


ana ne mmg pelik...siang tido...dlm kuliah un ley tido....tapi ble mlm berjage...hohohoh...since form 1...habit... masih menggu anugerah bantal yang dijanjikan oleh pengetua ana yg dulu coz slalo ngat tido dlm kelas...cekgu da bnyk komplen n da lali..."biar je la jannah uh"....huhuh

tribute tu shuhada...
tadi bru bergayut ngan minah ne...huhuhu...biasa la an...free besday call...hehehe...padahal bru ptg td gayut...smpi enset mati...smbung mlm lak...hehehe...thanks 4 wasting ur time to this insane gurl...huhuhu...tmpt ana menagis...ketawa..kaunter pertanyaan...nggeeng~~sometimes bergosip..hehehe....


gambo profile...
topik kami ialah gambo di fasebook...hrmm...ana tanye nape shue x upload stu gambo un...gambo profile dye lak..bontot kuali yg ader kat dapur umah dye ngan corak smiley...unik...huhu...dye ckp x penting un...sume fwens adalah org yg dikenali....tiada untuk suka2...


cantik ke??
pernah terdetik untuk ana letak gambo sndri...merasakan diri ini cantik untuk dilihat...perasaan tol...haihhh...tapi bila difikirkan kembali...niat dah salah...cantik bukan pada rupa...tapi pada akhlaknya...ye...ana juga manusia biasa...yang bisa leka...bukan ana nak tunjuk baik...tapi bila rasa diri cantik untuk ditayang..itulah yg terlintas....

perempuan vs fasebook
menjadi pengguna fasebook yg setia mmg dugaan besar....lebih2 lg sbgi perempuan..kadang kala niat kita baik...letak gambar untuk rakan...tapi ada jua yg salah sangka...x boleh nak salahkan mereka juga...tapi itulah dugaan...sebaikknya kita menapis...yg ini boleh...yg itu x boleh....dan sering jua terlepas pandang....hanya kesabaran tatkala cemuhan datang...

privacy...
ana ada buat privacy..album..gambar tag...kenapa?? bukan nak sembunyikan siapa diri ana yg sbnrnya...bukan nak hipokrit...kat luar lain...kat fasebook nak berlagak warak....tapi....perempuan bukanlah untuk ditayang...

~~saket aty ble org ckp nak tunjuk alim ble wat bek, tapi pada Allah saja yg tahu niat kita yg sbnrnya~~

nilai sebuah kehidupan yg sukar....


kenape ana tulih post ini...dedikasi khas nur zafirah...insan istimewa...ana bukan insan yg terbaik untuk jadikan teladan...hanya cebisan hidup ana...jgn terlalu bersedih sayang...

NEW LIFE...
study at matriculation is no my first choice....who know...Allah know the best 4 me...having my study there...it change a part of me...having solid daily plan...so packed...even worse compared during schedule in school....4 me as lazy person...it was hard...i had to change...if not...it will be worse 4 my future...


ME....
i'm not clever person...sit at chair for 30 minutes is really hard 4 me...i'm also not a hardworking person...having bad habit...sleeping when lecture...hardly to change....i'm hypocrite too...trying acting good in front of people... in fact i'm just hypcrite....


STRESS...
still not change until mid exam...this is the turning point for me...having very bad pointer...i think i'm the lowest...how hard i cry.....nowbody know...when i perform my prayer....asking Allah to give a strengh to change.....i juz giving reason by reason.....

THAT NIGHT...
maybe thinking so much...i start cry...when everyone sleep...i cry under pillow....cikin awake hearing my tear...cry until subuh...i didn't not sleep....i talk to myself " jannah!!! you have to be strong"...at that time...i'm trying to stop crying...but i can't...taking bath at 4 a.m...sounds crazy...but still crying...perform circumcision payer...taking my abulation....how i cry asking Allah to help me...

In MY MIND....
it sounds stupid...but i'm thinking to suicide....how i feel this life make me suffer...how weak i'm to face this world....how i thing that to stop all this by killing myself....nobody know how much my myself sick....sick with this life...but lucky that...i'm still know that...Allah never accept human that suicide....

THEN....
tomorrow morning my eyes swollen...try to cover it by wearing eyeliner....dizziness...how i'm trying to smile with my fwen...acting like nothing happen...in fact, my heart broken...then i decide...i must do something...after lunch...having earache..taking my medicine at clinic...done with my medicine...without thinking much...my sole walking toward caunselor room...asking advice from someone that i trust....


NOW....
still trying to face this world....sometime i still cry...but...control it...."TEGAS PADA DIRI...KAWAL PERASAAN"....yeah....for small thing i still cry.....but learn how to control it....me is me....how much i suffer only Allah know...maybe people see me smile...but my heart only Allah n me know...how much i struggle to find this strength...but i feel blessed with this life...how much lucky i am compared to other...


~nak minta maaf kat seseorang...kan bgos kalau dia tahu...then kalau jumpa...buat2 cam x penah jadik mende uh~

Aku Ingin Mencintai-Mu By Edcoustic



Tuhan betapa aku malu
atas semua yang Kau beri
padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMU kecewa
entah mungkin karna ku terlena
sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan
berulang kali agar aku kembali
dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia untuk menghambakanMU
betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku dihadapanMU
reff:aku ingin mencintaiMU
setulusnya,sebenar-benar aku cinta
dalam do'a dalam ucapan dalam setiap langkahku
aku ingin mendekatiMU selamanya
sehina apapun diriku
kuberharap untuk bertemu denganMU ya Rabbi

~sebuah lagu yg menggambarkan hati ana yg sebenarnya~

milo keras...hahahahha


sje nak tulih post nie....hahahaha....nak jadikan citer la an....

che nur hasikin punye keje...
hahahha...cikin telah membiarkan milo uh masok angin...taw x bape lame nak jadik gitu??? ade la stu semester...lame x??? hahahaha....bersamaan dgn 6 bulan lebey kurang...skng nie milo uh ade lg n tgh berusaha nak habiskan....hahahaha...punye ar keras...nak tercabot je gigi...hahahaha




cara2 nak buat...
beli je milo uh yang paket kecik nyer...patu biarkan tok slame mana yg anda suka...hahahah...senag kan...ley ganti gula2 kat umah uh...klu makan smbil wat omwork un sedap...hahahahha...tah ble ar nak abis mende uh...wat keje x pekdah jap...

~windoo sme adik~balik~suke nyer~

i'm juz tooo bad.....


YA ALLAH....
jahat nyer ana....
kuatlah nur saidatul jannah binti muhamad....
hurmmmm....
nak wat keje....
sibok dok online....
ne nak tulih blog plop...
kembali pk an...
pe yang ana mahu???
haihhhh....keliru...
dimanakah ana???
berfungsilah neuron....
hormon adrenaline da ilang...
yang tinggal hanya serotonin....
arhggggg!!!!!
sesak dada....
sukar.....warkah buat diri...
dititp kembali.....
semngat datanglah....
pergilah masa sukar....
cuba untuk senyum....
mengukir hari yang indah.........
rase nak menagis macam budak kecik je...
biar lege sket...
biar meraung2 je...hahahaha
mungkinkah kerana dosa2 ku.....
ana sentiasa cuba untuk jadi yang terbaik...
tapi sukarnya hanya ana yang mengerti....
alasan......

~~~~~BERSEMANGATLAH~~~~~

no fb...no twitter....no fwenster!!!!!




haihhhh...slah satu cara nak hentikan ketagihan....adoiii...tu la klu da celik it ngat......lalalalala ;p

kawanku....sahabtku...
hahaha....special tribute to nur nadia....tq kerana telah beri kerjasama menjayakan rancanganku....berfungsi sbgi pemegang amanah....rahsiaku di tangan dye....muehehehe....cam kejam je bunyik an....tapi ana telah beri kepercayaan kpdnya....ana juga percaya dia x akan memungkiri amanah yg ana beri....syukran ya ukhti....>__<


don't waste time....
time to studi!!!! exam da dekat....x ley online lame2....stakat blog n email je.....huhuhu....lawan malas!!!! chaiyok!!!! nhuhuhuhu....semngat lak ne....:)) ngee~~~mule2 engat nak deactivate tapi mengenagkan sibling2ku di fb....hurmmm...x jadik la...huhuhu.....x pe...sibling ana pasti memahami....patu mule ar takot....n jadik la citer ana pakai fb cikin nak tgk wall sndri...huhuhuhu....takot la org wat pape an....


~My Lovely Sam Soon~

Nice men are ugly.
Handsome men are not nice.
Handsome and nice men are married.
Handsome, nice and unmarried men are useless.
Handsome, nice, unmarried and rich men are not interested in us.
Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us are players .
Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us and faithful are homosexuals.
Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us, faithful, straight and who would not lose interest in us even if we made the first move… those men must have problems! – Sam Soon

~quotes cikin teach me~ sound bias but just 4 fun~ credit to cikin~

exam fever.....


skng masa sains informatik...bak kata cikgu amin...aktiviti bebeas...huhuhuhuh...pe lag....hupdate blog ne la....ngeee~~~ addicted ke...arap2 x...wanna share sumething...

PSPM....
Peperiksaan Sangat Paling Mudah.....hahahahha....18 okteber.....haihhh...nseb bek ader tutor yg semagat gler wat kelas malam2....huhuhu...ajerah n zaleha yg slalo paksa ana belajor....afwan ya ukhti....:))



CHECKLIST.....
~BIOLOGY~lg sket latihan n bace n bertanye n tido...InsyaAllah....
~KIMIA~jumpe ngan cikgu yuniza...mantapkan bhgian yg bocor...tampal sket....hehehehe
~MATH~ arghhhh...tidak!!!! caner ne...huh =_="


MUET....
apekah itu...huhuhu...bak kata madam zacky ana ada peluang untuk dapat band 4...huhuhuh...amin...arap2 la ye dpat...hehehehe....tapi....jgn tido mase listening test...adoiiii....mate owh mate...jganlah kamoo tertutup mase exem....haihhh...


PELUANG BARU....
ana dapat rezeki lain...nak terima atau menolak...bukan hendak jadik hamba yg tak taw bersyukur....tapi Allah meberi peluang untuk ana memilih...apakah yg harus ana pilih....Ya Allah....bantulah ana untuk memilih yang terbaik untuk ana...

~sedarlah duhai jannah~